暖風
十六歲 高一結束
帶喜歡的姑娘到海邊慶祝
驕傲自己高明的浪漫招數
暖風吹動寬鬆的校服
心形蛋糕 她驚喜 我滿足
才想起沒有火柴如何點燃蠟燭
怕被看低
不向身旁抽菸男人求助
寧可跑過整片沙灘馬路對面的小賣部
火機點不燃蠟燭
只有大風吹我一臉土
就連高考志願都沒法擅自作主
卻夢想青蔥歲月如電影史詩被記錄
沒有主人公衝破世俗的勇氣
狹隘的成功是我們這輩人的禁錮
三十六 躲過裁員
隨妻子的社團到綠洲遠足
熱氣拂面熟悉得讓我想哭
熱風吹亂稀疏的頭髮
他鄉水土故鄉風我恍惚
才知道人到中年其实也無醒悟
怕被看低
不與他人分享創傷辛苦
沈默攀爬卻被拋下透明玻璃有多堅固
看不見來時的路
只有大風吹我一臉土
內化封建保守卻得裝開放進步
僅觀賞她在沒我的世界馳騁就嫉妒
河水沖上岸烈日曬乾了鹹魚
孤立的怨恨是我們這輩人的無助
暖風 Warm Wind
Age sixteen, just finished freshman year
Brought the girl I like to the seaside to celebrate
So proud of my romantic skills
A warm wind blows my loose school uniform
Her surprise at the the heart-shaped cake makes me satisfied
Until I remember, there’s no matches; how to light the candles?
Afraid of being looked down upon
Didn’t ask the men smoking right there for help
Instead ran across the entire beach
To the little shop across the road
The lighter doesn’t light the candles
There is only a big wind of dust in my face
I can’t even choose which college to attend after my graduation
But I dream of the time of my youth being recorded like an epic movie
Don’t have a protagonist’s courage to break through the norms of the world
Narrowly defined success is the shackles of our generation
Now thirty six, evaded layoffs
Went with my wife’s social group on a hike
Hot air brushes my face, so familiar it makes me want to cry
A warm wind blows my thinning hair
The nature of another town just like homeland, I’m in a daze
Then I realize, that people in middle age also aren’t wiser
Afraid of being looked down upon
Don’t share my trauma and hardship with others
Silently climbing the corporate ladder, but the glass I’m trapped under is so strong
Can’t see the road that led me here
There is only a big wind of dust in my face
Internalized conservative views but have to pretend to be progressive
Simply seeing a world where she soars without me makes me jealous
River waters crash upon the shore, the sun dries the salted fish
Isolated grudges are our generation’s helplessness